2015 has been a goalpost in my mind for a long time. I have had two years to come come to grips that this is the year that Jeremy starts his physical transition.
My own physicality was something that I put at the back of my mind. In 2008 I started a long journey to gain strength and health through exercise and diet and by 2011 I felt amazing. In 2012 however, a combination of factors combined to start me on a self indulgent slide back to my heaviest. I spent last year addressing my mental health so was primed to start addressing how I look.
At Christmas I made a promise to my sister that I would exercise with her via a shared app. Much as we would love to exercise together the Melbourne – Chicago commute is time and cost prohibitive. So we check in with each other after we work out and this simple mechanism is enough to get me out of bed and turning on coach Justin for thirty minutes of exercise. That plus a free food tracker has helped me to monitor what I take in. Three weeks in and I realise the biggest difference is I now really want to change. My muscles ache, some mornings I am really tired but I value myself enough to give myself a half hour three times a week.The changes have been small but they are there!!!!
Jeremy is not feeling great about himself so we have discussed what he can do. I know first hand that depression sabotages your best efforts, poor self esteem can lead you back to the biscuit barrel far more than it does to the fruit bowl. For a committed chocoholic like Jeremy the lure of the sweet is overwhelming as well.
So the plan is to help J start moving and eat better. I’ve had to stay “no” to certain things, J has decided to make some changes and he will get support from me to help him stick to the changes that he wants to make.
Next week J has his blood tests, one step closer to starting cross hormone treatment. These hormones will change his body, my wish is that J wants to makes changes so he can look in the mirror and see the handsome young man that I see.